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My results have been released last week. For the ones who don’t have facebook, I would like to apologize for not updating my blog sooner - too busy wasting a week of leisure time I guess. hehe

Alhamdullilah. I pass my PoPPh exam :) To everyone who prayed for me, from the bottom of my heart, I would like to thank you for your prayers :) May God grant your wish too. Ameen

Think of it, many unexpected incidents had happened when exam was around the corner. Honestly, I already prepared myself to be called for supplementary exam if I failed as I thought I would not make it this time. But then, Alhamdullilah, thank you to Allah for listening to our prayers. Also, thanks a million to my ohana and closed friends for their time, ears, knowledge and encouragement. Thank you for being there when I really need you. I really appreciate them.

A week ago, before I started my journey to KL, I promised myself that once I reach home, it’s going to be the day when:

I let go the pass,

I live in the present,

and I plan for the future!

So here I am, at home, with ohana, being a new Farhana Syazwani Abdul Rahman with a new spirit :) Being home with ohana is just a perfect time to start a new chapter in my life. InsyaAllah.

Good luck to me!

Good luck to you too!

We don’t need to wait for new year to change, don’t we? ;)

Picture: Me and my ohana ie sister and cousins :)

Home is where ohana is. “Ohana means family. Family means no body gets left behind or being forgotten.”

Home is where you can just be yourself. You can frown the whole week and say “Sorry. I’m not in a good mood.” At the same time, you don’t have to worry which feelings going to get hurt because they will understand.

Home is where they love you for who you are and be on your side though sometimes they don’t agree with you.

Home is the place where happiness is.

I miss home.

I miss hugging mama everyday. I miss being Abah’s princess. I miss dating with Abg Sorel (dan Abg belanja of course.. hehe). I miss hanging out with Wiena. I miss being pampered by Kak Yah, my maid. (She would say, “Anak dara ni, malas betul, goreng telur pun nak suruk Kak Yah!” hehe) I miss Aiman, Abg Solan & Kak Allya too but they won’t be home til next year. Huhu.

In three more days to come, my examination is going to begin. Hopefully it will end with flying colours results. Ameen. It has been a long time since the last long break. If I pass eveything, I will have the opportunity to spend the whole 2 months at home with my ohana! In fact, I will get the chance to attend my best friend’s wedding and be there for my dear Fara.

Hopefully, everything will turn out to be fine, InsyaAllah. As a friend of mine typed in an sms yesterday, “Don’t worry Wanie, keep doing our best and keep praying (this is the most vital!!) ok! The most important is to have strategy.”

Good Luck Wanie! and Good Luck to all Class 2010 :) May God help all of us again this time. Ameen.

p/s: Be happy Wanie! Be Happy!

Today, my dream to have a big birthday card has came true. Alhamdulillah :)

Thank U to my dear SWEET HOUSEMATES (Sayang Fadilah & Ika!!)

To everyone who makes my birthday a great one,  thank you very much:) I really appreciate the wish, presents and efforts!! May God bless U always! Ameen

Love, Hugs, Kisses:

Wanie :)

My clock just showed 12am. Today is 28 September 2009!!

So, why am I making such a big deal with this date?

Because:

1) Today is my birthday!! Yeah!! Alhamdullillah Allah still gives me the opportunity to breathe the oxygen and to appreciate this colourful life. May Allah bless me and my loved ones. Ameen

2) Today, my dear sister, Wiena is entering the medical school. The registration will be held very soon (this morning!). Congratulation Wiena!! Good Luck! Let add more doctors in the family, InsyaAllah. (Adik, as long as you remember my birthday, I’m sure you will remember the date of your registration day. See, told ya 28 September is special!! Hehe)

3) Today, my study-leave is officially started. Huhu. In two weeks time, I will be sitting for my first half of the final examination in medical school. (The total marks for my degree is 800 and this is the first half ie this examination consists of 400 and another 400 will be taken next June.) Good luck Farhana Syazwani! Please pray for me and my friends ok! Hopefully we will pass this exam with flying colours. AMEEN.

Time flies fast right? The memory of my first semester in University College Dublin is still fresh. I still remember how hard the Anatomy subject was until I had no idea on how to pass the first year exam. I did cry many times and I thought I was going to stuck in first year forever. Huhu. Now, I can’t believe that I’m actually going to take half of my final exam soon. Alhamdullilah I make it this far.

I end this special entry with a meaningful song that I always listen to, when I am almost going to cry especially when life is getting tough. (This entry is special because it is posted on a very special date.. hehe) Guess what? If we have no one to sing with us, we can actually sing this song to ourselves. During my first semester, when I didn’t have close friends yet, I always sang this song in front of the mirror and say “We’ll remember it was me and you…. high……” to my reflection. Hehe.

As I mentioned in my previous entry, life is just like roller-coaster. Thus, when we are on the bottom, just remember that one day InsyaAllah we will be on the top! Well, I haven’t reached the top yet, but at least now I know I leave the bottom behind and hopefully, I’m approaching the top. Even if there is going to be another storm that pushes me back to the bottom, hopefully, Allah will give me strength to continue my journey to the top. No matter what, I will sing this song again and again and tell myself, one day I gona get so high, InsyaAllah!

Thank you for reading my Sweet Jovial. May God bless all of us and shower us with happiness and serenity :o)

Love,

Birthday Lady ;o)

Sebelum bercerita, Wanie nak ucapkan:

Selamat Hari Raya!! Sorry kalau Wanie ada buat salah dan silap ok! :)

Now.. cerita boleh start:

Masa balik dari Hospital Bahagia, hujan lebat sangat. The fastest wiper pun susah nak nampak jalan. Tetiba, kereta Wira warna kelabu dari lane kanan terbabas dan masuk lane Wanie dengan keadaan melintang. Wanie terus slow down (reflex sebenarnya, Syaza yang perasan Wanie slow down). Nasib baik kereta tu jauh lagi. Wanie sempat la gak plan. Wanie nak tengok samada kereta tu akan terus pusing or berhenti kat lane Wanie. Kalau berhenti kat lane Wanie, Wanie kena tukar lane. Nasib baik lane kanan tak de orang. Wanie dah budget nak tukar lane dah kerana nak elak langgar kereta tu. Tapi kereta tu tetiba pergi kat tepi jalan, masuk longkang dan TERBALIK. Tayar kat atas, atap kat bawah. Huhu.

Masa kereta dah masuk longkang, Wanie baru bersuara, “Korang, tengok kereta depan.” (maybe mula-mula tu speechless jap coz tak sure kereta Wanie dapat elak dia ke tak.. huhu) Syaza yang duduk belakang baru perasan sebab masa Wanie slow down, dia tengah tengok belakang, takut-takut ada lori yang tak perasan Wanie slow down. In fact, Kak Huda yang duduk depan pun baru terfikir yang tu accident. Kak Huda kata, “Akak mula-mula pelik, kenapalah kereta tu mcm tu.. bila Wanie suruh tengok kereta tu baru akak terfikir tu accident!” Huhu

Lepas tu Wanie tak sempat tengok dah coz dah pass by kereta tu. Kata Syaza dan Kak Huda cermin depan kereta tu pecah dan kereta tu berasap.

Kak Huda terus kata, “Berhenti Wanie.. berhenti!!!” Tapi Syaza kata “Terus je Wanie, nanti kalau berhenti takut lori langgar kita pulak.” Disebabkan masa tu hujan lebat sangat dan nothing could be done by us, Wanie pun terus je. In fact, dalam St John Ambulance pun, prinsip yang utama ialah, “Pastikan diri sendiri selamat sebelum tolong orang lain.” So, Wanie pun terus je drive kereta.

Syaza kata tak da orang perasan kemalangan tu. Maklumlah masa tu hujan lebat dan kereta tu pun warna kelabu. We realised that it was our responsible to inform the authority. huhu. Dah la tak hafal number plus. Nak baca number plus kat tepi jalan pun samar-samar je. So, Syaza call “999″ dulu. Hospital Tapah kata dia akan hantar ambulans. Setelah tengok number plus banyak kali, baru dapat detect number plus ie 1-800-88-0000 (ada empat kosong kat belakang!!). Kiterang pun beritahu la tempat kejadian kilometer 3.18.

Sementara tu, hujan terus turun dengan sangat lebat sampaikan the fastest wiper pun tak nampak apa-apa melainkan lampu kereta depan. Semua orang mulut kumat-kamit berzikir masa tu. Wanie ikut je belakang lori dengan 40km/hr. Huhu. Biar lambat asal selamat. In fact, kereta Wanie kan Kembara, so, tak stabil sangat dan senang terbalik. Hanya Allah je yang tahu betapa lambatnya nak sampai ke nearest R&R masa tu. Bila dah sampai R&R Tapah dengan selamat, semua pun bersyukur. Semua terdiam sekejap.

“Alhamdullilah selamat sampai Tapah….” Wanie pun bersuara. Kiterang pun cerita la kat each other to recall what had happened. Rupa-rupanya Wanie je yang mula-mula perasan kereta tu terbabas. Lepas tu, kiterang pun memikirkan kemungkinan yang boleh berlaku.

“Kalau kita bawa kereta cepat siket, kita mungkin langgar kereta tu dari depan ataupun kereta tu mungkin langgar kita dari kanan. Alhamdullilah, kita lambat siket kan.” Wanie pun berkata-kata.

Syaza pun balas, “We only missed it by few seconds Wanie. Alhamdullilah Allah selamatkan kita semua.”

Malam tu Syaza call plus lagi. Alhamdullilah, orang tu selamat dan tak cedera pun. Cuma kereta je yang teruk. Bila fikir balik, ada hikmah gak kereta tu pergi longkang. Kalau berhenti kat jalan raya, lori leh langgar kereta tu.

So, the moral of the story:

1) Jangan bawak laju-laju masa hujan!
2) Driver kena sentiasa alert masa kat jalan raya coz anything can happen.
3) Try not to panic dan doa banyak-banyak kalau dalam danger.
4) Sila hafal number plus: 1-800-88-0000 (ada 4 number 0 kat belakang ok)
5) Kalau tak tahu number plus, call je “999″
6) If ada accident, sila tengok kilometer berapa so that senang plus nak pergi.
7) Kalau nak tolong org, pastikan diri sendiri selamat dulu! Itu adalah prinsip pertama St John Ambulance.

8) Abah kata, kalau kereta terbabas, jangan tekan hand-brek sebab itu yang buat kereta terbalik.

Lebih kurang setahun setengah yang lepas, di Malaysian Hall, ada seorang pakcik tanya Wanie soalan-soalan cepumas masa Wanie tengah buat laundary kat basement. Basement tu tempat orang selalu jual makanan masa puasa.

“Wanie dah ada cik abang?” Pakcik tu tanya.

Wanie tahu je maksud dia boyfriend. Tapie Wanie tafsirkan ‘Abang’ sebagai Abang Sorel Wanie di Kuala Lumpur. Pakcik dan geng2 dia selalu jual makanan buka puasa kat situ. Dierang selalu kacau Wanie. Wanie malas lah nak cakap Wanie tengah single masa tu, nanti lagi teruk kena kacau. Huhu.

“Dah ada dah.” Wanie jawab. Abang Sorel pun Abang gak kan. Hehe

“Kat sini (Ireland) ke?”

“Tak. Dia kat KL.”

“Ooo.. patutlah hari tu kata tak sabar-sabar nak balik Penang. Cik Abang tunggu di Malaysia rupanya.” Pakcik mengusik.

Wanie senyum je. Hehe

“Cik Abang belajar apa?”

Alamak. Banyak tanya pulak. Erm.. Wanie pun jawab je la details pasal Abg Sorel. Hehe

“Dia tak belajar. Dah kerja dah.”

“Kerja apa?”

“Engineer.”

“Wah. Hebat!”

“Mestilah, cik Abang saya mestilah hebat.” (oh dear, nasib baik tak tergelak masa tu. Tapie dah tersengih-sengih dah. Mesti dia ingat Wanie tersenyum ingat boyfriend. Hehe)

“Kat mana kerja?”

“Kat company kat Ampang.” Nampak real kan. Hehe

“Bila nak kawin?”

Tertelan air liur dengar soalan ini. Ha? Mana boleh kawin dengan abang sendiri. Tapie Wanie kan bijak. Wanie jawab la soalan dia sebagai soalan am. Kawin tak semestinya kawin dengan Abang Sorel kan. Hehe.

Wanie dengan jujur pun menjawab, “Kawin lepas Wanie Grad. Wanie dah janji dengan Mama dah.”

“Alamak, kesian cik abang kena tunggu.” Amboi pakcik ni… banyak lak komen dia. Hehe.

“Takpe pakcik. Kalau sayang, mesti cik abang akan tunggu.” Wanie saja melayan. Hahaha.

“Dah berapa lama kenal cik Abang ni?”

Wanie terdiam kejap. Takkan nak cakap sejak lahir kut. Kantoi!! Aiyo!!! Wanie pun at the same time tak nak menipu. Macam mana ni? Huhu.

So, Wanie jawab, “Adalah….. dah lama lak jugak.”

“Wah lama tu berapa lama? Lima enam tahun?”

Dalam hati, Wanie jawab 22 tahun dah. Sebab tak nak tipu, Wanie kata, “Dah lama lah. Mana boleh beritahu. Rahsia tau.” Hehehe.

Lepas tu Wanie cepat-cepat habiskan laundary. Itulah cerita pasal cik Abang Wanie. Hehe

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Why am I writing this? Because last 9 September 09 (09.09.09) was Abg Sorel’s Birthday! I have shown you most of my Ohana’s pictures except his. Since “Ohana means Family. Family means no one get left behind or forgotten,” so, I would like to take this opportunity to introduce you my ‘Cik Abang’ with the lovely Aiman. Suddenly the funny story crossed my mind and I decided to write about it. Hehe

I have 2 elder brothers and he’s the second in the family.

Happy Belated Birthday Abg Sorel!! May Allah bless U always n 4eva!! I love you!! Thank you for being my ‘cik abang’!! Hehe.

(Abg Sorel, sory lambat post. Semalam kena hantar case write-up. So, masa beday abg Wanie tgh kelam kabut. Tapie at least, Wanie dah call abg pagi-pagi buta dan wish kan. hehe)

Remember the last poem that I posted? I sms my friend last 2 days to know how she was coping.

She claimed her life is getting better. Though she is still waiting for her dreams to come true, at least now, it is not as bad as before. It is wonderful to see how Allah had planned for her in order to help her go through the obstacles. I’m happy to know that she is not going to be alone anymore as there is a kind-hearted family who is going to take a good care of her. Alhamdullilah :).

I do believe that if we trust Allah and keep praying to Him, InsyaAllah sooner or later, things will get better.

“No calamity befalls on the earth or in you, but it is inscribed in the Book of Decrees (Al-Lauh Al Mahfuz) before We bring it into existence. Verily, that is easy for Allah. In order that you may neither grieve at things over that you fail to get nor rejoice over that which has been given to you.And Allah likes not prideful boasters

(Al-Hadid, verses 22-23)

Thank you for praying for her :) May Allah bless all of you and help you too!! Ameen :)

I had been searching for ideas to compose a story for my Ramadhan entry. Unfortunately, nothing interesting came out from my mind. On the other hand, I have found a hadith while I was reading the translation of the Quran yesterday. Thus, instead of waiting for my brain which isn’t so creative these few days, I decided to post the hadith.

Narrated by Ibn Abbas:

Once I was behind the Prophet (peace be upon Him) and he said:

“O boy, I will teach you a few words:

1) Be loyal and obedient to Allah (Worship him alone), remember Him always, obey His Orders. He will save you from every evil and will take care of you in all the spheres of life.

2) Be loyal and obedient to Allah, you will find him near (in front of you), ie He will respond to your request.

3) If you ask, ask Allah.

4) If you seek help, seek help from Allah.

5) Know that if all the people get together in order to benefit you with something, they will not be able to benefit you in anything except what Allah has decreed for you. And if they all get together in order you with something; they will not be able to harm you in anything except what Allah has decreed for you.”

(Hadith Sahih At-Tirmidhi)

My dear Muslim readers, I would like to wish you “Happy Ramadhan!”

May our bond with Allah get closer and stronger in this blessing month. Ameen :)

My dear friend,

For you - life has been really tough,

It should be smooth instead of rough.

Today, again, I received your sms,

The latest news makes you depressed.

I’m very sorry that I’m so far away,

The best way I could help you is pray.

I hope my words could comfort you,

As there’s nothing more I could do…..

My dear Sweet Jovial readers,

I hope you can pray for her -

InsyaAllah her life will be better. (ameen)

p/s: Awk byk tolong kite especially masa kite kat Dublin. Allah tu baik. Allah mesti tolong awk balik… Awak sabar ye. Kite doakan awk k… tu je yang kite leh buat……… sorry sangat.

I waited for you with a special gift,
A personal belonging for me to give,
But then Mr Clock forced me to leave,
All my dreams turned into a grief…

Since the day when you didn’t turn up,
My heart still continued beating Lup-Dup,
Though there were thousands secrets untold,
Alhamdullilah there was Allah for me to hold.

Indeed, I did laugh and smile,
As happy as a cheerful child,
That’s how I suppressed my pain,
When there was a heavy rain.

I didn’t dare to tell my beloved ones about you again and again,
I’ was afraid that they would get annoyed and end up having migraine.

I tried to convince them and myself about your other side,
The angle side that I believed you had successfully hide,
But then, I knew it was an unrealistic false hope,
As part of my defense mechanism in order to cope.

Previously, when the rains continued,
I would ask myself when I think of you -
“If you turned up when I expected you to;
Would these feelings be less blue?”

Now, I still believe Allah always knows the best -
And though your absence was hurting my chest,
I could forgive, forget and appreciate my good rest.

-Farhana Syazwani Abdul Rahman, 11 August 2009